I totally obsessed with finding out who is Kenny Kwek. It has been said I look like him. I mean really look like him. But not like twins. Actually thats not the freaky part. The freaky part is that our personality are quite alike. I have been like to everyone and like asking "Do you know who is Kenny Kwek? Do really look like him?" I starting to think that people are thinking I am crazy. Haha..

The 2nd week is almost over. I still have not made my choice yet. Sigh.. I really dont know what to do. This is important that I cant make a choice. Cuz either way its the same. Arggh.. Kill me!

I just wanna runaway and hide from everyone. I feel so scared in case I fall. I am trying to prove to them that I can make it on my own. So tell me why does it feel so hard today.

I dont wanna waste anymore time, on something I cant do. So dont try and talk me into it. Cuz I am not coming with you.

I have always tried to wear my heart on my sleeve, but now I am hiding it away. I know my friends will always by my side. So tell me why does it feel so hard today.

I dont wanna waste anymore time, on something I cant do. So dont try and talk me into it. Cuz I am not coming with you.

I dont wanna waste anymore time, there is nothing I can do. So dont try and talk me into it. Cuz I am not coming with you.

Its got me feeling so insecure. I am tired acting like I am so damn sure. And I think think that they can all just sense the weakness inside of me. Its hard.

I have gotta keep this dream alive or it is goodbye. I need some help right now, but I cant cry out and let everybody know. That underneath my skin I am torn and scared, but I will keep my feelings in or it is goodbye.

Try to keep it on time, when I am talking do you feel much safer somehow. Once I was strong
But now it all seems to feel so wrong.

I have gotta keep this dream alive or it is goodbye. I need some help right now, but I cant cry out and let everybody know. That underneath my skin I am torn and scared, but I will keep my feelings in or it is goodbye.

It is goodbye.

Finally. 1 week is over. Sigh.. Miss Seah somehow manage to make me stay put for another week. I'm really sick of it and just want to get out of it as fast as possible. As I have said. It's killing me. I still think it's not meant to be. We'll see..

Kill Me! Kill Me! Kill Me! Arggh.. Why did I make such a stupid choice! I can't take it! I should have stayed! I'm not able to cope anymore. Why make myself suffer! Transfer Out! Transfer Out! Arggh.. I need to transfer out! This is just too much for me to handle. It's killing me! Let me out! I don't want it anymore. No more! I just want OUT! That's all! OUT! Somebody Kill Me!